Reborn...

we are reborn through every breathe... we are reborn from here... sunyoga with the light from all surrounds us... with the light of our guru ~ Jac ~ namaste ~

20.01.2010 a brown colour chubby puppy is gone...

It died...straight away, I guess. I am out for late lunch alone today. I started the engine and stay in the car for around 1 min typing message before I move the car. I heard a sound "pum" (like roll over something) together with the voiceeeeeeeee... then a big dog coming from far. I guess I just knocked down a dog!! OMG!! I called back to office from ‘makan’ place. There was a puppy lying out there, not moving at all, and a big dog is licking it as told by my office receptionist that seeing from far. I found it is dead when I came back from lunch, it is a yellow colour chubby puppy. I put it onto the grass area and leave the packet rice for the big dog..... I walked up to my room and look down through the window, d packet rice is still there, but the puppy and big dog are not there anymore. Not long after that, it rains... so strange, I feel like I am blessed because the sudden rain relief me, feels like it washed off everything... left only with the wet packet rice when I see from the window again. Maybe it has been blessed too for not suffered from continuous pain....thank god (-.-) may peace and love with the puppy and its mummy...

10.01.2010 nunu is gone...

I am totally blank today when I came back from the market with a lot of vegetable and found that nunu has gone…

I feel guilty. I wondering am I the one whom cause his death. He wasn’t look good since a month back when he always upside down himself. I heard that is a sign of commit suicide. I was careless enough that I didn’t take good care of him even though I saw a sign.

Since I start my yoga course, I was so called “concentrate” until I admit I didn’t really play with him. This is not the first time, I lost something when I lose my own balance in life. Before I start the course, I found myself struggling at work. It sounds like excuses but I know I always lose my balance when I try to focus.

There are much to be learned… I am too naïve, I guess. I feel upset. It is better that I do not deal with any live creatures. Or, I might be the one whom cause their death.

This is the longest period that I can keep a live creatures with me, more than 3 years..(of course, except human being). This is the one and only which I gave him a name. It's been a long time before I am “brave” enough to own one again - an indian tortoise, which I bought at serdang 3 years back.

When I was a child, someone gave me and my brother a doggie, like a small elephant when we first lift him up from the small box. But, he left after few weeks due to some illness. He is small. After that, we have not own any pet and my brother only take care of the cat that left by our mum and the "kitten daughter" of that cat and so on all the “subsequent kitten (cat)”. And me, only have NUNU after so many years, the one and only animal that I scratch my head and give him a name.

last day of NUNU

May peace and love with nunu (-.-)

(I think I'm not qualified to take care of any live creatures... lucky I didn't go into nursing industries....) om shanti