I feel guilty. I wondering am I the one whom cause his death. He wasn’t look good since a month back when he always upside down himself. I heard that is a sign of commit suicide. I was careless enough that I didn’t take good care of him even though I saw a sign.
Since I start my yoga course, I was so called “concentrate” until I admit I didn’t really play with him. This is not the first time, I lost something when I lose my own balance in life. Before I start the course, I found myself struggling at work. It sounds like excuses but I know I always lose my balance when I try to focus.
There are much to be learned… I am too naïve, I guess. I feel upset. It is better that I do not deal with any live creatures. Or, I might be the one whom cause their death.
This is the longest period that I can keep a live creatures with me, more than 3 years..(of course, except human being). This is the one and only which I gave him a name. It's been a long time before I am “brave” enough to own one again - an indian tortoise, which I bought at serdang 3 years back.
When I was a child, someone gave me and my brother a doggie, like a small elephant when we first lift him up from the small box. But, he left after few weeks due to some illness. He is small. After that, we have not own any pet and my brother only take care of the cat that left by our mum and the "kitten daughter" of that cat and so on all the “subsequent kitten (cat)”. And me, only have NUNU after so many years, the one and only animal that I scratch my head and give him a name.
last day of NUNU
May peace and love with nunu (-.-)
(I think I'm not qualified to take care of any live creatures... lucky I didn't go into nursing industries....) om shanti
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